Friday, December 25, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
I am done with my shopping as I did that all while I was still overseas...throughout the year picking up things here and there. It's such a nice time saver for this time of year...no stressing out!
Looks like it may be another day of rain in the desert? Or at least it did rain already. We'll see if it continues or not. I don't know. I hope not, but I'm ok with it if it does...it just reminds me of Germany right now. Glad that I just lived in this kind of weather for 2 yrs...it doesn't depress me as much as it used to when there was a day of clouds.
Happy Friday and Happy Weekend!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
I have a friend who is looking at doing this, too. We talked about how it would be interesting if we were able to work at the same school. Anyway - grief and saddness makes you do so many different things. I guess it was a good thing to come home. I now know that the man I fell in love with is incapable of giving me more (you know, commitment!) And so now I can move forward and go on with life. It's still hard! I have my nights where I just cry...I hate that, but I guess it's a necessary thing to know that my heart is still able to love....I've not shut it off...at least I'm trying not to do so....
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I'm writing down a little bit of a memoir-ish type story of our relationship. I think that will help me get all my feelings out - good, bad, and indifferent. Perhaps the ending isn't all bad or sad. Perhaps it's a blessing. We will remain friends, E and I. But I will always love him!
Ok...I just want to avoid going to bed nowadays! I get to my room and the tears almost come automatically! But last night was the first night I didn't call, text, or email him. I think that was progress. And so far today I'm doing well. Maybe if I can keep it up for a few days in a row, then we can have a conversation again...just to see how life is going for the other.
Breaking up sucks! And especially with someone that you saw a full and happy future with!
Friday, October 30, 2009
I was at the middle school for two days in a row and I had two of my former 3rd graders in a few of the classes! It was quite nice to see them. One of them told me that I had been her favorite teacher in elementary school! How that warms the heart. I had taught her brother before her, and her sister after her. Quite nice!!!
Anyway, I am off to be in 4th grade today! And then I'll be in High School on Monday. I'm also going to start tutoring. It'll be so nice. 3 days a week for an hour. $60 an hour...that'll work out to some nice extra cash for me....I'm glad to have folks looking out for me and helping out by trying to find me work. :o)
Here's to a great Friday! Enjoy it!
Monday, October 26, 2009
And if they do remember me, I certainly hope they remember me with happy thoughts. I wouldn't want them to remember me being a bitchy teacher...although sometimes I was. Depended on the kid and what they were up to. But...crazy thoughts! I know.
I'll try to let you know if there were any good memories shared or not. I do know that most of the kids in these groups were ones I liked. There may be a few that I had a hard time with...but they could already be in high school. The years start to mesh together.
There is one girl I'd love to see. I remember her year completely. And what she went through that year. It was heart-breaking...I'd just love to see her and see how she's turned out.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Mama Kat has another great list of prompts. I chose this one because...
Seeing as I'm a teacher and I've worked in a few different schools where the playgrund rules are amazingly different at each one...I have a few rules of my own:
1. Play safely!
2. Take turns on the slide and swings.
3. If someone is sliding down the slide move out of the way!!!
4. No walking up the slide if someone is sliding down.
5. Use your imagination while on the playground equipment.
6 Use your kind words with one another.
PLAY SAFELY :: PLAY KINDLY :: PLAY FAIRLY
1. Hit each other.
2. Hurt each other.
3. Speak unkindly.
4. Be mean!!!
DON'T HURT YOURSELF OR OTHERS!!!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I've been reflecting and processing the information in that phone call all day, and yet I'm not one bit closer to understanding what it means. I know that it came because of fear of gettng close, but...did it really need to happen at 4 and then continue for 2 hrs???? I don't know...I'm just not sure of anything.
When asking for clarification, I didn't get a full one. I'm not sure what was going on!! So, I will continue to reflect and try to figure out what it is that I should do.
To move on, or not to move on? With him, or without him? Huh? Some pondering is going to be happening tonight. Boy I hope I don't get another 4am call. I need to get some sleep tonight!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
10) Scrubbing the bottom of the pool in a snorkle outfit.
9) Jumping up and down on a bed of nails.
8) Stand in line at the Dept. of Licensing.
7) Watching a horror movie marathon.
6) Putting my finger in the light-socket.
5) Be an outside window washer for buildings that are 20 stories high or higher.
4) Pick up garbage on the interstate.
3) Be in politics.
2) Be like Forest Gump and run across the U.S.
And the number 1 thing I'd rather be doing than having sex with David Letterman....(drum roll)
1) Swim in a shark tank with a few fresh paper cuts on my fingers.
Thanks MamaKat and Happy Hour Sue!! What a fab idea!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
I am remembering last year though....fond memories! I was in Santorini, Greece last year on my birthday as my school had their Fall Break during the week of my birthday. I found that quite exciting! Here's a pic of me on the island:
Then two years ago, I was lucky enough to spend my birthday in Paris.
What an amazing two years of birthday's! And now....I am in the desert....Palm Springs! I love that the weather has cooled down and all, but I'm still wishing I could have gone somewhere special this year! Although, I must say that I am glad to be subbing at this precise moment. I do not have a job lined up for tomorrow. It's great! I get to sleep in. Do what I want! What better way to spend my birthday?
Monday, October 5, 2009
I don't think he saw me take the pic, but I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't know I had taken it!
Here you go...
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Mama Kat and her great Writer's Workshop moments....
Okay, so this couple I think I will call....Christian, and Rebekah.
"Rebekah!!! Come on!!! I was just joking!"
"Walk the other way Christian! I mean it!"
Kissing her shoulder, Christian says, "But honey, I swear I didn't know that you would go out to the far, far corner of the yard to search for me!"
"Well the game WAS Hide-And-Go-Seek. You're supposed to look everywhere! No one told me there was poison ivy in the yard!"
"Yes, well, why would you think I was hiding back there? You can see from here that that I am not small enough to hide in the ivy."
"I know..." Rebekah sighed. "I wasn't actually looking for you over there."
"You weren't? Then...what were you doing over there?"
"I was...no - I can't tell you! I'm embarrassed." Rebekah turned around and walked away again.
Christian followed and kissed her again on the shoulder. "Honey, you can tell me anything."
"Promise you won't laugh?"
"I promise I'll try. Is that ok?"
"Well, I supposed that is the best I can hope for!"
"Ok, so...what were you doing over there?"
"I was...I was...I was relieving myself! There! I said it!"
Trying to stiffle a chuckle, "Oh, my!!! Ok, so that is a bit embarrassing. But, it's ok. Just don't go into the corner of the yard again! I suppose that you can understand that now, though!!!"
"Yeah, I suppose I can. But....I just couldn't wait. Will you rub some calomine lotion on me, please?"
Raising his eyebrows, Christian said, "Yes indeed!" He embraced Rebekah again and they walked into the house together.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
If I could go anywhere in the world....since I was able to see many places in the two years I was in Germany, there aren't too many other places I would like to go. Did you believe that? You shouldn't have!!! I would love to see many of the same place I went to before but I'd also like to go to a few others.
Some of those places I'd love to re-visit are:
Tallinn, Estonia because it was just filled with medieval looks. I loved it.
Another place I would love to re-visit would be Paris....I LOVE PARIS. Paris c'est une tres belle ville! Elle est magnifique!
I'd love to go back to Switzerland. I think going back in the summer would be fun, but I'd love to see it in the winter as well. Here's a shot of a waterfall.
And here's the Mt. I climbed:
And the last place I'd love to re-visit is Ireland. Anywhere there. It's all great After my twelve days of driving through the country, I couldn't get enough of it. Here's the Cliffs of Moher.
Now as for the places that I'd love to visit...I wanna go to Australia. I now have friends living there. It would be great to and travel around down-under in Oz. I wanna see some Kangaroos, which I've heard are just nuisances. Crazy I know.
And I'd love to go to Rome. Denmark, The Netherlands, and Lebanon. You're probably thinking....I can understand Rome, Denmark, and Holland, but...Lebanon? Well, I'm part Lebanese and I've always been curious about that part of my heritage. But that country has been in War for all of my life and I'm not sure that I would feel comfy going there. But I'd love to. I am related to a fairly famous philosopher/writer from there. It'd be cool if I could meet any of the family.
There you have it. My wishes.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! And he was only in 3rd grade. Man I love teaching! It's always full of surprises. Needless to say I sent that little sucker back to his class and spoke to the Asst. Principal about him. Apparently he's already on their radar screen and had spoken to the principal this morning. Goodness me! In all my years of teaching and 6 of them were at a school with kids just as rough and tough...none of them openly threatened me!
I wasn't scared, I mean, he was being a snide little SOB but....I wasn't scared. I just WAS! Ok...all is good now.
I'm home. Actually I'm gonna get off of here and change so that I can make it to my karate class. I need to go! Work off some of the stress from the day!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Then I saw this and I was reminded that the small things in life are so great!
Thanks Summer for reminding me of that!
And just now, I was called to sub for a school...I had to turn them down, because I am already booked! Kind of nice! But a little sad. I would love to sub at that school. My former school!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Ok, so some of my fall favorites (although I won't get to enjoy them this year as I'm in the desert now):
1. The changing color of leaves. I have a friend who lives in Vermont and she calls the folks who drive up there to watch the changing of the leaves "leaf peepers" I love that! I want to be a "leaf peeper." One of these days I will go and hang with her in Vermont and peep at those leaves during the fall!
2. The smell that is in the air. Usually that's attributed to the leaves as well. But the crispness the starts to come out that you can just smell.
3. The way people's demeanor changes. It usually gets nicer. It's like during springtime as well. When the weather warms up after a long winter people get nicer. And vice versa...when the summer heat starts to cool down it's when people start to get nicer as well. You've gotta love that!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
And the cool thing about it all is that although I'm subbing, I have this nice feeling about it all. I don't have to creat sub plans and I don't have to grade anything or do report cards. Wow! It feels kind of freeing. Plus I don't have to go to the mtgs!!! Now, I would trade with anyone of the teachers, don't get me wrong. I don't have benefits with subbing and I don't have as much money coming my way, but...that's ok. At least money will be coming IN finally! Although after yesterday's air conditioning fix....a lot of what will be coming in will be going OUT!!!
Another kinda cool thing about subbing is that I finally get to see what the other schools are like. I worked in the same school for 6 yrs when I worked for the district and I only ever saw another school if we had a mtg there. And then it was only the multipurpose room. But now...I will be seeing loads of different schools and some I've never even been to before.
So I'm doing what I want to do - teach - but I'm doing it in a different way. I subbed 10 years ago when I was fresh from the farm (right out of college) but I was young and didn't really know what I was doing!
Anyway...I'm just elated to be working. It's such a nice feeling! I hope that everyone is good and that you are having good luck in work!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
They came today. Checked me out. Apparently the A/C unit is 30 years old (the bloody original unit that was put in the condo) and it where the condensation is supposed to go...it's not. The plate or whatever is all rusted through now and so the condensation is running down to the fan. Which is why the smoke and smell! Ugh!!!
So...the plus side is that I might have a little less energy being used by getting the new unit put in. And there is a lifetime warranty...whose though? Mine? The guy that sold it to me? Whatever. But the guys can come and tear out my old unit and put in a new one today...TODAY! Thankfully the temps outside are reasonable lately. The downside is the pice tag that comes along with this new unit.
But I suppose that it's a good thing all in all. The unit DOES need to be updated and hopefully it'll be better and all. I guess that I'll just have to wait and see.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I have now put in for subbing at two different private schools and the main district out here. I hope to be getting some jobs soon. That would be nice. A check would be fabulous.
Anyway....and then to top it all off, I got a letter from a collection agency asking for money that I do not owe. It is apparently from the storage unit company I had used while in Germany. I had paid for that unit in full for the 2 yrs. I left it clean and didn't owe them any money. I didn't get any letters from the storage unit company asking for money. I have only gotten something from this collection agency. They didn't even tell why I owe money. Ugh! I have sent them a letter disputing the claim. I hope they actually look into th claim. But they probably won't and then I'll have to deal with more crazy stuff. Ugh!
Ok...enough of that. It's depressing. I'm just trying to prepare myself for what might be.
Happy Labor Day Weekend all! Have a great one!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
We got back to his place and hung out for a bit and continued to chat. Then it got late so we went to bed. This morning it was nice. We were having a great conversation. He was talking about a family friend who had been a doctor. He told me he had been traveling in the car with this fellow years ago and they came across a bit piece of wood in the middle of the road. The doctor stopped the car, got out, and moved the piece of wood to the side of the road in order to help save someone's car/life/whatever. When he got back into the car with Eric he told him, "I've done my good deed for the day."
I think that's what we all need to do these days. Do a good deed (or more) a day. The whole "pay it forward" thing. I love that idea.
God bless all those who are already doing this! Now, I cannot say that I have done my good deed for the day. I should really try to pursue this and see what I can come up with each day. It might be quite interesting. I think I'm going to go and ponder this some.
Have blessed Sunday!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Inspiration comes from the craziest things! I haven't played Frogger in years, but...it just seemed interesting to write that. Well, here's to a weekend that doesn't have cars coming at you in all directions. Don't forget to look both ways before you cross the street! :o) Who else can write a story from a beloved old video game? Leave me a comment if you've written one. I'd love to read it!
*Picture from www.listal.com
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
List ten things you would say to ten different people in your life...if you had the chutzpah.(inspired by Cassandra from Cassagram)
1. A, why don't you just tell him you love him already and get it over with? We can all see that you are desperately in love with one another.
2. CB, can't you see how much he doesn't work? He talks a great game, but his students just haven't learned a damn thing all year!
3. SB, you have really pissed me off!!!! Pay me my money NOW!
4. E, can we talk about our future?
5. J, you suck as a teacher! You need to stop avoiding work so much and actually do your job. There's no reason why you need a full time assistant!
6. KB, you were one of the worst administrators I've ever had. You lie, and talk behind your employees backs, how is that ever a good thing? At some point, you will get your just rewards!
7. You are really, really cute! Kiss me!
8. Give me a seat in First Class, it's empty and I know you don't need to charge me the fee to sit there. This is a 14 hr flight, give me a little something for it. Even if it's just for 5 hrs of the flight.
9. KR, I can't believe you made the decision 2 yrs in a row to stay in a country you despise for a guy. It worked out so well for you last year (NOT)! I wish you luck this time. But, really??? You should never stay somewhere for someone else, you should always stay somewhere for yourself or go somewhere for yourself.
10. F, I can't believe how the tides have changed. You have a job and now I don't. How is that fair???
Ok, so a few of those would be really fun to say to others and some of them would be really interesting to find out what would be said in response. One of these days, perhaps I will have the guts to say something to some of the folks that need to hear it!
Monday, August 10, 2009
I keep looking for teaching jobs, but I am also looking at the classifieds for other positions out there. Might just need to do something different in order to get a paycheck coming my way.
Woke up this morning and my eyes were all puffy. It's like I had cried all night long (I hadn't by the way). I don't know what the deal is. I ice-packed my eyes and it's a bit better. I just don't understand it. Weird.
Anyway, I hope that this week proves to be positive and great! Here's hoping in any case. Maybe I should get on my few kid books that I've written and edit and whatnot and maybe try my luck and actually send them out to people. What could it hurt, right? Rejection isn't that bad is it??? Who am I kidding, I would be devastated, but....maybe I wouldn't be rejected. Anyway....we'll see what I do. I still need to unpack my house. I've been such a procrastinator on that part. Ugh!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Hanging out with Eric was even more fun. I totally love hanging out him. I missed him tremendously while I was in Germany.
Anyhoo....there are some crazy things going on in the world around us, isn't there. LA police shooting a 6 yr old girl because they couldn't find a way around the girls father, who was using her as a shield. Serious stuff! Scary and completely crazy, in my opinion.
Taxpayers in LA county (again, LA) having to pay for MJ's memorial service. How stupid is that? I can't believe that that occurs. It was brought to my attention that this happens a lot. The taxpayers end up paying for things that aren't really taxpayers responsibilities. I love it! Well, I actually hate it! But....you know what I mean!
Ok, it's late, I'm tired so I am going to bid this weekend farewell. Adios, au revoir, tschuss, see ya, goodbye, goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
So...if I'm sporadic with my writing for awhile, forgive me. I'm still trying to find my foothold being back home.
Have a great Thursday!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I also went to karate for the first time in two years. It was good. I had a great workout. I'm gonna be sore tomorrow, I believe. But....that's ok. It was needed.
Anyway...hoping for a good day tomorrow. It's almost August and I will be getting really nervous soon if something doesn't show up for me.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
View of Atlantic along the Ring of Kerry
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Have a great weekend!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Because of all of this, I am bored. I called my friend this morning to ask if she wanted to stroll around the Kellerskopf (the name of the hill by her apt). It's a beautiful morning out and the birds are chirping. It'd be nice to go and do that. But....I also need to be back and showered by before 12:20 or 12:30 so that I can catch the bus into town. I'm meeting some friends for lunch.
So....I guess I'm just bored for the morning as I will be having a good time this afternoon and I have plans for the afternoon. Gotta love that.
Ok....so maybe I'll be doing a few more things before I either go on a walk or go into town. I just don't wanna do it yet.
Here's a few grateful items for the day that might help put me in a positive mood for the remainder of the day:
1. The sun is out and it actually feels like summer.
2. The birds are singing some lovely songs.
3. I have lunch plans with 2 lovely friends that I won't see for a long, long time!
4. My clothes are drying out in the sunshine.
5. I'm calm and cool and collected - almost happy!
6. I love all my good friends - those new and old! It's great to have friends who care about you.
7. Balcony's are great...I love mine and I'm going to take advantage of it today while I still have a chair to sit on out there.
Ok, so 7 isn't bad for the day. I might think of more later, but....for now I'll leave it at that. Have a great Friday everyone! And a safe, safe, weekend!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
It was a beautiful day today too, and then a frickin' huge rain cloud, that came out of nowhere, just burst open for like 15 minutes. I'm ready to go back to the desert. Sunny and HOT daily! No thoughts about what the weather will be like from one minute to the next - you know it will be sunny and hot!
My friend Martine is supposed to be coming over soon. We're gonna have a glass or two of wine. It'll be good. We haven't seen each other since last Friday. And now I've only got 5 more days before i have to say goodbye to her. It's all so sad.
Ok, so how do you keep your mind busy? My mind just keeps going back to what is or isn't happening....job? no job? what is it? I just wish I knew already! But....patience they say is a virtue...one I don't possess, but...I'm trying hard to acquire it!
I guess I should be thinking....Ireland, Ireland, Ireland....only 5 more days and I'll be in Ireland and starting a cool new traveling adventure....all by myself....but that might be a good thing....time to reflect and think about things and life and stuff.
So, I'll leave this on that good note....planning for my trip through Ireland. Friendly people, good scenery, and a fab accent!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
When it's time to say goodbye I hope I have the strength.
When it's time to bid farewell I hope I can still wave.
It's time to leave.
This I know to be true.
You and I have a bond that I hope stays forever.
You and I have a trust that I hope never fades.
It's time to leave.
This I know to be true.
Leaving is rough both emotionally and spiritually.
Leaving is difficult both in real time and in elapsed time.
It's time to leave.
This I know to be true.
This chapter is over but a new one unfolds.
This chapter has ended; a new journey is waiting.
It's time to leave.
This I know to be true.
True friendship is hard to come by.
True friendship is what we have!
It's time to leave.
This I know to be true.
poem by Madamoiselle June 2009
So....sitting in my almost empty apt is making me sad, excited, and scared all at the same time. Starting a new chapter is hard. Transitioning is rough. But I fear I've been a tad negative lately, and I know that this poem isn't all that 'positive' but I thought I'd end it with a bit more optimism. I will see my friends soon...those who are in California, and that's a good thing. I'm glad to see them. I've missed them. I'm traveling through Ireland....that will be so fabulous and life-changing (as I'm going there solo). And I'm going to have multiple places around the world to come and visit! That is, by far, the best thing of all!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I ended up going out for a LONG walk this morning to try to clear my head from all the frustration building up! It didn't really work.
This is so frustrating. If they have sent me a letter, it's not going to get to me until the end of this week - if then - because of the distance from the west coast to Germany. Yikes! I think I will email them a bit later and see if they have made any decisions. I hate playing this game. It's so difficult and hard. But....alas, I need to play it in order to get a job!
Will post more when I know more!
Monday, June 22, 2009
I look at my email and....nothing....my tummy is completely knotted up. I'm nervous. I hope that I got it. It would fill the rest of my summer with relief!
I guess I should just chill out and be patient. The last time I was feeling like this was when I was in London waiting to see if I got the 2nd interview. I ended up having a fairly prophetic dream....the principal telling me "Of course we want you to work for us!" Or it was something like that. I wonder if I should wait and see if I get another prophetic dream....UGH!!! I. Do. Not. Like. To. Wait. Patience is SOOOOOO not a virtue of mine. I keep hoping it will miraculously become a virtue but, alas, it hasn't happened. Although I suppose sometimes I'm more patient than I used to be.
So I decided to sit down and blog about this moment. I am hoping that I can say how happy I am tomorrow....Because hopefully I can say that I will have a job tomorrow.
Ok, so, I'm trying to have faith and think positively and all! I. Can. Do. This. Be patient that is. Or at the very least, I can try!
Friday, June 19, 2009
I was good with my kids...I usually am. Then my room parents gave me this book with all the kids pictures and something they had said about me. I almost lost it then. It was crazy. Then when we sent the kiddos to their parents, I saw a few of my parents from last year and I tried to hold it together, but I couldn't. I gave the one parent a hug and the tears just flowed down. It was so crazy. Then I saw another parent from last year and that set me off again. And a parent from this year. Leaving is hard...change is hard...saying goodbye is painful! I had to say goodbye to the woman I have been working with very closely for two years....It was so hard. I did fine until I walked away....And now, just writing about it, I'm tearing up!
When I hugged my assistant principal goodbye I lost it as well. She's been so nice and wonderful over the past two years. One of the best administrators I've had. Thankfully the major person that I WILL have to say goodbye to didn't need to happen today. Too many people...parents, friends, colleagues, students....Not. Fun.
I'm happy that school is over and that I can move onto something bigger and better! But....these were a bunch of people that were just amazing to work with! I cannot have asked for a better group of people to work with and become friends with.
Thankfully we've already set up a reunion in two years....Australia! I can save up for that one, and I'm looking forward to it.
I know that my really hard goodbye is yet to come. And I'm so not wanting that one to happen. But at least Martine and I have a few more days together before all that occurs. It will be heartbreaking, but....I know that we'll see each other again and keep in contact over the years!
So...here's to a fabulous two years in Germany! I have loved it! I can't believe that it's coming to a close!
Monday, June 15, 2009
So the interview was over Skype....if you've never used Skype, it's pretty cool. It's basically a computer to computer phone call, but you can have video viewing options. So....way back when we were younger and people used to say that one day you could be talking to someone on the the phone and see them....well now you can. It's crazy!
I had the interview with the principal and five of the board members who are parents for the school. Crazy!!! But I hope it went well. We will see in a week's time one way or the other.
Fingers crossed that this went well. It would be a fabulous opportunity to go into this school. And not only that, I could finally relax. Knowing I have a job at home will be nice and I could then just focus on the rest of the things I need to do. Like moving!!!
Only 3 1/2 more days of school. I cannot believe that it's finally here. How crazy is that? You wish for this day after New Year's to arrive and then it shows up, almost out of the blue...Friday is going to be a mega sad day....lot's of really cool people that I'll be saying goodbye to! Ugh! I hate goodbyes!
Saturday, June 6, 2009
It was a fabulous night full of laughter and dancing and of course WINE!!!
I love this woman! Can't wait to go visit her in Vermont! I wanna be a leaf-peeper in the fall!
As you can tell, we really didn't enjoy ourselves at all! LOL It was great....Can you believe that we're teachers??? Yes, we teach your lil' guys the three R's.
Good times in a wine cellar!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Now I can take some time to write to MamaKat's writing prompt:
For some crazy reason, I think I tend to choose number 3 the most when I write these prompts. I wonder why that is? Lucky number? I always thought my lucky number was seven. Huh? Something to think about.
3.) Describe a memorable gift. Why was it important to you?
I received a journal from my boyfriend, at the time, a few years ago. He had gone to Europe with some buddies for the summer and had picked up a journal from Florence, Italy. He had saved it for my birthday. It was so sweet. He had whipped the present out of his bag one evening and lay it on my chest. I was taken aback, but when I saw it was a leather bound journal I was completely touched. He knew I wrote in a journal often. He had been thinking about me during his summer vacation....it was just so sweet.
I didn't start writing in it right away as I had more of my previous journal to fill in. When I did start writing in it - as I still am doing to this day - I think back to that evening and smile! It's a good reminder of a great gift and a wonderful gesture from a great guy! I still love that guy....can't wait to get back to the states and see him again!
I love gifts that come to you from someone who took the time to think about what it is that you like and know about who you are. A journal was just the most appropriate gift to give me....I simply love it!
I've made my notes and I've gone through them. My tummy is filled with butterflies....ugh! I hope that it goes well, because I was hoping to do one of MamaKat's writing prompts this week. I haven't done one in awhile.
I cannot, however, think about much else at the moment than my imminent interview. Fingers are crossed, prayers have been sent up. I have friends wishing me luck all over the world....
Well, I'll keep you posted on the news as it arrives. I just need to calm down....maybe a cup of tea would be smart! That might help calm the nerves. Yep...off to make tea! Too good of an idea to pass up!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
We saw a very disturbing amount of hair that had been kept. I learned that a lot of the hair had been used to make blankets and clothes. It was not something I knew about nor really wanted to see. The children were always the saddest. There was a picture of a girl after they had been freed, and she was 14 yrs old, but she looked 60. That brought a wave of saddness on.
The city of Krakow, after seeing the history, is very pretty. The main square is lovely. And there is a market that is quite fun to look around at. Here are some final pictures of the city. It definitely helps to see the city after going to Auschwitz. It lets you know that there is good out there and that what happened, although real, didn't stop this town from becoming beautiful!
I would definitely recommend going to Krakow if you ever have the chance!
Friday, May 29, 2009
I can and cannot imagine what Auschwitz will be like.
I am ready to look at and hopefully purchase some Polish Pottery. I've seen some for the past few years and they are pretty. It'll be a nice keepsake. Anyway....need to pack, clean, and do all the rest before leaving.
Have a great weekend, and safe travels for anyone heading out of town!
Monday, May 25, 2009
*photo is from when I was first moving into my classroom so it's a bit of a shambles....
Sunday, May 24, 2009
The weather was amazing! It's been sunny and warm. I just sat out on my balcony for about an hour, reading, listening to music, and just enjoying the warmth of the sun as I closed my eyes for a bit. RE-LAX-ING!
So, now, it's Sunday evening (early yet, still) but evening nonetheless. I'm dreading heading into work tomorrow. Don't wanna go! If I could get away with calling in sick, I probably would. But it's far easier to suffer through the day than come up with sub plans!
Alright, here are a list of things I'm grateful for today (it's much needed after last weekend's plight!):
1. Blue skys and singing birds.
2. Friends who call to check up on you and make sure you're doing alright.
3. A clean kitchen - it took me a few hours to actually complete it today, but it's done and I'm happy about that!
4. The sunshine! Germany sure is pretty when the sun comes out!
5. The discovery of new music. I had been watching some "Ghost Whisperer" episodes and liked a few of the songs, and found out who sang them. The Script will be my new obsession. They're a band out of Ireland. Good sound!
6. Having someone else make dinner for me, and hearing her kids in the background get excited that I was invited over....how blessed do I feel that I'm wanted company!
Ok, so six isn't so bad for today...Oh, and I must welcome Trudy....thanks for being my first follower....how exciting is that!
To all those stateside this weekend, enjoy your Memorial Day tomorrow. Be safe and all!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
This list is in no particular order. They are all just pretty annoying at this particular moment.
1. Passive aggressive people! I have a few of these people in my life, mostly because they are those I work with....I don't enjoy them. It's not fun to be the recipient of their passive aggression....
2. Double negatives....if I could give an example, I would, but seriously, my ears start to bleed when I hear one!
3. Report Card writing! I know parents want to see the comments and all...but it's ridiculous the amount of writing I must do per child. Seriously, do parents really want to read all of that? I don't think so! Not that I'm a parent or anything. I just don't think that it's necessary for teachers to spend their weekends and "free time" working on report cards that are read once then put in a drawer.
4. Job searching! I hate moving and I hate looking for new jobs. I just wish this was already over with! UGH!
5. The yearbook! I've complained about this on previous posts....and it's so up in the top ten! I am ready for the books to be here so that they can be given out! Oy vay!
6. Clean freaks! My desk, in my working classroom, gets a tad messy, because it's basically a place to put papers. I rarely sit there! My passive aggressive boss has found my desk mess an embarrassment to her. I don't see what she has to be embarrassed about...It's my mess, not hers. And not only that, it's not that bad. It's really just organized chaotic piles. I know exactly what I have on my desk! Seriously! Just ask...I'll go right to it! Damn PR principals!
7. Doing Dishes....without a dishwasher, other than myself, I despise this job. My kitchen is small and when a few dishes stack up, it gets even smaller! Ugh! I wish I had a maid....
8. Cramps. 'Nuff said!
9. People acting like my mother. I know they are doing it out of love and to be helpful. But they are really starting to get on my nerves! I already have a mother...I don't need another two or three!
10. My cell phone battery! My goodness, this darn thing will be nice and plumped up at the beginning of the day, and then in a few hours it's already almost dead. There are times that it stays charged for two or three days without a problem. Now, though, it's dying quickly. That's annoying, especially when you need to use it and you can't!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
I also have an interview for a school in San Diego! Yeah! Although it's a good 2-2 1/2 hrs away from my condo, I don't care. I would be back where I was hoping to be. So...we'll see about it all!
Life is complicated right now, though. I'm SOOOOOO ready to come home. I'm SOOOOO done with being here. But I'm scared about the change, especially since I don't know where I'll be. If I knew where I'll be then I'd be at least a bit ok with the change. But....without knowing, I don't know, I'm freaking out about it.
I'm sad to leave friends. I'm scared of that last day when we all do say goodbye. When will we see each other again. Will it just be a Facebook relationship, or will we talk on the phone. Will we be able to work out visits? Huh....just too much. Plus I have report cards to work on and loads of other very boring paperwork that needs to be finished!
Homesickness sucks at a time like this! Hope I get over it soon so that I can focus on what needs to be done.
Friday, May 15, 2009
I've been working on the yearbook - ugh times infinity! And then my friend asks, but doesn't actually "ask" more like "demands" that I should go to our school's flea market tomorrow morning and set up shop and sell the yearbook to those there.
It was the straw that broke the camels back!!! I swear! This happened right before the day started, and I'm still reeling from it! I did do the "adult" thing and talk to her about it. It was a good thing to do. I'm glad that we spoke, but....I'm still hurt and pissed and, and, and, and, and.....
When will this end???? This is when I'm so freakin' DONE with being in Germany. This is when I want so BADLY to be HOME!!! I miss people so very much....and this type of stuff just brings it all into my view again!
OKAY....I've vented. I'm better....well, better-ish. I'm ready for a BIG bottle of wine! Or a good stiff drink....if only I had some hard liquor....
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
So this guy was at the Temple Philae in Egypt. He doesn't look so happy as he has tumbled down from his original spot and just in general...he looks a bit angered about something. Sometimes I wish the tour I had been on wasn't in German...I might have picked up a bit more information...although I don't think our guide actually talked about this fella.
The birdie sitting there, as the snow tumbles down, seemed a ton sad. It was spring, last year, and we had had tons of sun and the flowers had bloomed, and then....BAM! The snow started to fall again. This young feller was trying to stay out of the major snowfall!
As for joy:
Hanging with good friends just brings me tons of joy! Especially since I'm so far away from my family....my adopted family of friends help with tough times!
When you get the chance to sit on the beach on your birthday on a beautiful island in Greece...that is complete goodness. You can tell just how happy and relaxed I was feeling then...and that's without liquid nourishment. That came later that evening!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
A few of us went down last night to enjoy some drinks and good company. They have this Eierliquor (Egg liquor - I know it sounds disgusting, but it's not) that they pour into a chocolate dipped shot glass cone - you know, so you can eat the glass after drinking your drink....it's amazing. It's not something I'd ever drink at any other time, I don't think, but....all the same, it's great - I think the chocolate helps that!
I'm not doing too shabby this morning either. A bit of a headache, but I am feeling good. Will probably head down again tonight for some goodies just because this village is hopping for the weekend!
It's so enjoyable to be in a country that uses any excuse to have a weekend of eating and drinking...the apple trees are in bloom, the early wine is ready, the onions have been harvested...you get the picture! It's endless!
I'll cheers to you all while I'm enjoying my splash of wine, or eierliquor, or sekt, or whatever else I might decide to enjoy!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
I want to be back in the desert because I'll be closer to family and friends that I've missed tremendously. And I'll also be closer to a special someone who hasn't left my heart. But do I move home just because I want to be closer to him? Is that really what I should do? Would that be a completely stupid thing? (I don't really need the answers to those questions - they are more rhetorical :o) ! ) I am pretty sure I know the answer I should give and yet, the heart, and brain are battling it out!
I suppose that time will tell what is supposed to happen both job-wise and man-wise....If he comes to travel with me this summer, then it might help me to know more of what I should do....but what if I get a job offer somewhere around the globe, but none in the desert? Do I say "No" just so that I can be in the desert to maybe get back together....
That's the thing, I don't know if he would even want to get back together - yep haven't asked that question yet. I think I know the answer, but I don't want to ask for fear that I'll receive the other answer that would make me sad. I'm a wimp, I know.
We actually have pretty good communication, but I find I get a bit scared here and there, so then i just don't ask the "tough" questions that might lead to a broken heart. I shouldn't even worry about it....we've been apart for 2 years. Although we still talk and email, and he came and traveled me last year for my spring break....we haven't been together for 2 years.
I'm a dork for even worrying about this, I'm sure, but I am a woman and this is what we do tend to worry about....especially when we're single. Well, perhaps the answer will come to me in a dream, or a job offer - I suppose that either one would do at the moment!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Now, I don't have my plane ticket yet, but that's only because I'm not exactly sure of the day I want to arrive and all. Plus I have to make hotel reservations and the like.
So, anyway...there is a parent at my school from Ireland who owns a B&B there. I need to speak with her and find out if I can get a room with their establishment before I make too many plans.
But my basic plan at the moment is:
Arrive in Dublin and stay for a few days checking out the city and what it has to offer. Rent a car and drive to the B&B (I think it's in County Cork somewhere) and make that my base for the remainder of my time. Since I'll have a car I can take day trips to Blarney Castle and Kiss the Blarney Stone (it apparently gives one the gift of gab - not sure I need more gab, but what the hell, right? -When in Rome and all...)
There are many things I'd like to see, but having a bit of a relaxing time is also on my mind. I'll have been in End Of The Year Mode at school for quite some time - as it's starting now - and then packing and shipping my things back home (or, again, wherever), and then saying goodbye to the many very dear people that I have met....I'm going to be EXHAUSTED!
At least going to Ireland should bring me some goodness....they speak English (I'll ignore the fact that they also speak Gaelic at the moment) and I'll be able to understand them! I won't have to stare at the lovely folks of Ireland with that I-have-no-idea-what-you-just-said-but-I'll-nod-as-if-I-did-understand look. It'll be bliss...plus I love Irish accents....they're so much fun!
Maybe I'll meet a lovely Irish man who will sweep me off my feet! Or maybe the man I want to travel with will come and meet me there....who knows....
But, the URGENT must see list of mine will be complete after Ireland. I'm excited to see this country. I've wanted to go ever since I found out I had a bit of Irish in my blood. Not enough to really amount to anything (1/16) but all the same, it's something and to be in the land that held some of my ancestors is kind of neat. Wish I knew where they hailed from. But....I don't have that information. I know that they immigrated during the potato famine to the South....that's all....but I'm not sure that it matters all that much. It will be a pleasure to have a chance to visit the country and see the beautiful countryside!
I had sent a query into an international school in Kuala Lumpur and they responded with a "please send your resume and letters of recommendation for review." This definitely pleased me! I was like - YEAH!!! AWESOME!!! But at the same time, I'm thinking, OH MY GOD!! Where might I end up? The school itself looks AMAZING and I think it would be another fabulous experience. I'm just not sure I'm ready to go to another spot.
I have people, specific people, that I was hoping to go back home to, and now....I may not be given the opportunity to go back home. But I suppose if I'm meant to be off somewhere in Asia, then I should take that opportunity and consider it a blessing that I'll be given a job! Plus, one never knows what is around the corner waiting for them.
Maybe I'll meet the most fantastic man ever over there or wherever and that will be it! Maybe I won't, but who can ever tell?
Sooooo, considering that I don't have a job to home to, and yet I'm going home....I suppose that I should be happy that they contacted me based on the form they ask prospective teachers to fill out. As they wouldn't have contacted me unless they found my information interesting, right? Or was I one of only a few who actually noticed they had an opening? In any case....good things will come my way - they will, they will, they will!
I think I need to make sure that I start believing this!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
I've started to get things put away in the proper places. I have laundry hanging out to dry on the balcony! Yeah! The sun is out. But now I'm sitting on my couch and typing on my blog. Procrastination 101....find anything else to do BUT what you are supposed to do!
It's not that I have a lot to do. My dishes are done already. My bedroom is done except for clean sheets and vacuuming. My living room isn't too bad, but needs to be vacuumed. And then it's just the bathrooms. If I could just snap my fingers and my bathrooms were clean....I would do it. I sometimes wish I were Samantha - wiggle my nose et voila! Sparkling clean everything!
Too bad I'm not. Maybe in my next life.
Ok. No. More. Procrastinating. Must. Clean. Now.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Her: Hey! How's it going?
Me: Hey you! I'm ok...didn't get the job at Marywood, so a bit bummed, but it was a longshot! How are you?
Her: Aw, I'm sorry, that sucks. I'm good.
Me: Yeah, well, they went with a computer teacher...
Her: I'm actually doing a bunch of applying this evening....computer smumputer
Me: That's all I did yesterday...I sat in front of the computer and looked at job openings. Ugh! I saw that there are a few in Ho Chi Mihn City. Maybe you should stay!!
Her: yeah, ugh! Nope, not staying! I wanna go home.
Me: I hear that...but I'm thinking I'd need a job more than I need to be home...we'll see, we'll see. Any other interviews for ya?
Her: Yeah, I think I'm in the opposite position, I need to be home more than I need a job. I can always sub. No other interviews.
Me: Did you hear back from the schools you sent your video to? And yep...subbing is always an option...if I really feel the need to be home, then...I'll do that.
Her: Nope, they said they would send them to the principals, and "let me know"
Me: Perhaps a little reminder that you're still interested is necessary. I had my interview with the school in DC last Monday...went well. Said they were in the middle of interviews though...but gonna send a little reminder about who I am tomorrow and say that I'm still interested in their school...We'll see. I hate searching for jobs!
Her: Well that's good hopefully that will work out for you. Yeah, the job search sucks. I think I will send them a reminder today.
Me: Good girl!!!
Her: On a lighter note I actually went out drinking last night!
Me: Yeah, if it wasn't for my bloody condo...I'd be ok with going to a few other areas.... Drinking? You? Wow! Hope you didn't wake up with a huge hangover!
Her: No, I didn't do the excessive drinking, I still don't trust everyone you know to be that out of control but I was good and drunk. It was great.
Me: Good for you! Always nice to have a night to social and drink. Fri we went to a friends house for a BBQ and had wine, or mojitos, margaritas. It was fab.
Her: Yeah I had a good time. I hung out with a bunch of Vietnamese, Korean, English, Australian, Irish and a New Yorker, fantastic!
Me: I bet that was great fun! What day do you fly back home again? It's in June, right?
Her: June 14th
Me: I'm a month behind ya. July 16.
Her: I'll be in LA at 10:05 am on the 14th, Sunday...oh wow
Me: Boy will you be nice and tired! I get into PS at like 6 pm. But I stop in Chicago and then again in Phoenix. Ugh!
Her: How long are you staying in Ireland? 2 stopovers huh?
Me: Not sure yet. Prob somewhere between 7 and 10 days. Esp if I'm on my own...I think that will be enough. You should come!!! That would be fun!
Her: Yeah, I think so. I leave for Kuala Lumpur on Thursday....come to Ireland?!
Her: or to the airport?
Me: Ireland babe! I'm looking at a school that has an opening in Kuala Lumpur!
Her: Huh, now I have to look up ticket prices and put off applications... Oh really? I'll let you know how it is.
Her: (Of course)
Me: Anything to be distracted right? I didn't do any cleaning yesterday...although that was my hope....and it's not looking good today...
Her: Pretty much. I got a pedicure this morning...you know because I had to have one...so why are you applying for the job in DC not in Northern Ca?
Me: But I must...our relocation person is coming to check out my apt. to see if she'd be willing to get someone into it for next year...so must be clean by Tue. Don't know...it was an int'l school and the east coast would be interesting. I've applied to lots of jobs in Vermont, too.
Her: Huh, that's cool.
Me: Yeah....I miss our pedi and mani days...They're not the same here...no cool foot baths and massaging chairs.
Her: Yeah, same here...no massage chair but it was nice. I got a mani pedi (a nice one) for $10. That's the nice thing.
Me: Wow!!! $10....amazing...Have you been able to save a bunch? Can I be nosy and ask what you take home each month?
Her: Yeah, I save a good amount. I bring home $2100. I get $2400 each month with my housing allowance.
Me: Nice! I think I might need to go to Asia just to afford to keep my condo! Europe is great...I love it....but it's not a place to teach if you want to save money!
Her: For example this month...I bought my plane ticket home, my plane and hotel for Malaysia, paid rent, bought shoes, clothes, drinks and every other thing I wanted including expensive coffee and food and I am still managing to save $800. yeah, Asia is totally the place to save.
Me: Wow!! That's amazing...nice for being able to enjoy the finer things in life, huh? Like manis and pedis!
Her: Well, "finer" on a busy dirty street and miserably hot places! Such a dichotomy. Well yes I do like the mani's and pedi's.
Me: Funny girl! But....you understood what I meant.
There's a bit more....however....it just goes on a bit more and then a few British terms get thrown in there. I love that I use "bloody" in normal conversation, as well as "bugger" (although that's a really horrible term!) Hope you were able to follow the conversation I had with my friend.....it's so much easier when you're in the IM moment....
Happy May Day!