Right place...?

Have you ever wondered if you are in the right place? I am ALWAYS wondering that!!! I reflect on things and where I am frequently. There are times when I think that there is no possible way that I'm in the right place. And then there are times that I know that I am. And yet...there are a few other moments where I'm going on faith that I'm in the right place and that there is a reason for me to be there.

I wish that things were clearer. I wish that I just knew the reasons behind it all. But...then I think a bit further and realize that the reason will come. It will just come on its own time and in its own way. I suppose that patience is somethng that needs to play a role in here somewhere.

So...when you're feeling down, or happy, or confused...know that there is a reason and that you are feeling what you are supposed to be feeling at that time. You are in the right place. However...if you ever get the feeling, and a strong feeling, that you are supposed to be, oh...I don't know, somewhere else - like a police station reporting a crime - I'd follow that instinct! It's probably correct!

Live in the moment, I guess is what I'm trying to say. Enjoy the beauty that surrounds you and appreciate what you have!

Keeping my mind off things

Or rather, I'm trying to. My apt is almost empty. It's weird. I was in it for two years and it was definitely home. Although it was always a temporary place, I felt comfy here. It's now a bit echo-y. So bizarre. I still haven't heard about the job...darn it! So...I'm trying to keep my mind busy on the remainder of things that I need to do. Clean, clean, clean, and, oh, did I mention clean? Yep, gotta get the apt cleaned. Everything will be out of my place on Sat. And then it will be painted as well. So, so, so weird. I can't believe this chapter is closing!

It was a beautiful day today too, and then a frickin' huge rain cloud, that came out of nowhere, just burst open for like 15 minutes. I'm ready to go back to the desert. Sunny and HOT daily! No thoughts about what the weather will be like from one minute to the next - you know it will be sunny and hot!

My friend Martine is supposed to be coming over soon. We're gonna have a glass or two of wine. It'll be good. We haven't seen each other since last Friday. And now I've only got 5 more days before i have to say goodbye to her. It's all so sad.

Ok, so how do you keep your mind busy? My mind just keeps going back to what is or isn't happening....job? no job? what is it? I just wish I knew already! But....patience they say is a virtue...one I don't possess, but...I'm trying hard to acquire it!

I guess I should be thinking....Ireland, Ireland, Ireland....only 5 more days and I'll be in Ireland and starting a cool new traveling adventure....all by myself....but that might be a good thing....time to reflect and think about things and life and stuff.

So, I'll leave this on that good note....planning for my trip through Ireland. Friendly people, good scenery, and a fab accent!

Knotted all up!

Ok, so I've had a crazy weekend....packing and cleaning and getting in "last" looks of my lovely German Village. I've been sad, happy, excited, and sad all over again. Now I'm waiting to see if I got the job I interviewed for last Monday. Sometimes I hate being on a 9 hour time difference!

I look at my email and....nothing....my tummy is completely knotted up. I'm nervous. I hope that I got it. It would fill the rest of my summer with relief!

I guess I should just chill out and be patient. The last time I was feeling like this was when I was in London waiting to see if I got the 2nd interview. I ended up having a fairly prophetic dream....the principal telling me "Of course we want you to work for us!" Or it was something like that. I wonder if I should wait and see if I get another prophetic dream....UGH!!! I. Do. Not. Like. To. Wait. Patience is SOOOOOO not a virtue of mine. I keep hoping it will miraculously become a virtue but, alas, it hasn't happened. Although I suppose sometimes I'm more patient than I used to be.

So I decided to sit down and blog about this moment. I am hoping that I can say how happy I am tomorrow....Because hopefully I can say that I will have a job tomorrow.

Ok, so, I'm trying to have faith and think positively and all! I. Can. Do. This. Be patient that is. Or at the very least, I can try!

Waiting

Waiting and being patient is difficult for me. So are many other things, but waiting is really hard. I am currently waiting for a girl to come and stay with me for 2 nights. I don't know her. She's going to be teaching at my school next year and is checking it out a bit. She didn't want to get a hotel room, and so I offered my place.

Our HR person is supposed to have brought her to my friends apt that she's going to be talked into taking over and then over here by 7:00 I thought. But it's now 8:00 and I haven't heard anything about where they are or anything. I'm hoping that by now, they've made it to my friend's house.

Anyway....another beautiful day in Naurod! And HOT! I can't believe that we went from 5 cold months to a pretty much 90 degree day. And in a school with no AC. Ugh! My classroom faces the afternoon sun and that whole wall is a wall of windows. Where that is a very good thing when it is winter, it is not so much fun in the summer. I had no lights on, the shades were down, the fan was blowing, but....it didn't help much with the coolness factor.

Don't get me wrong....I enjoyed the fact that it was nice and all, I'm just not prepared when there's no AC! Especially after going from needed jackets one day to needing to be in a tank top the next.

Ok, still waiting....I'll try to be patient, but it's going to start getting really bad here soon! I like to be in the know, and I'm not in the know at the moment. Where was the phone call to say, "hey, sorry, but we're running late. We'll be there around 9:00."

*photo is from when I was first moving into my classroom so it's a bit of a shambles....

Patience...not my virtue

So I've been sitting on my couch this evening looking for job postings at international schools and in So. Cal. A few possibilities...

I sent an email to the school in DC to say, "Remember me!!!" and "I enjoyed speaking with you during our interview." The Asst. principal responded today with a "I enjoyed speaking with you, too. I'll let you know if there's something else we may need for your file." It sounds all positive. But then I start to think about each word and sentence and what her mood may have been when she wrote it. Was she really feeling positive and happy about our conversation? Or did she just take 2 seconds to write a response to me? At first glance I was feeling positive about it and happy for the response. And now....I'm second, triple, and quadruple guessing my first thought.
When will it end???

Where I know that I will end up where I'm supposed to end up...I cannot help but want that process to hurry itself up a bit...well, A LOT! I'm not a patient person, you see!

Anyway...The more I look at the school in DC, the more I feel it might be a good move. I just hope that the administration at the school feels like I would be a good cadidate for them! I've never been to DC and I've never really spent much time on the East Coast - only a week in Boston - and I'd like to see that side of the country....so, patience needs to be a viture I am searchng for! It's a hard one to come by...


Stay tuned for more news on the job front....hopefully something will be coming of all the resumes and applications that have been sent out soon.