New Perspective

So, I've been reflecting and thinking and reflecting some more...yes, I know those mean the same thing (basically). All last year I was trying my darndest to find a teaching job that was perfect for me. I tried looking overseas again. I tried looking in California. I tried going for jobs that weren't in the education field. Nothing seemed to work. I had offers to teach in some places...but those positions weren't right for me.

I ended up getting a long-term subbing job for a friend. It's turning into a fairly LONG term thing - not sure when it'll end at this point. I realized that all my prayers for me to have a full-time job and to be where God wants me to be have actually been answered. I am supposed to be HERE. I am teaching FULL-TIME. It may not be in the manner I wanted, but it's the manner in which God wants for me.

I am blessed and I am happy about it. I Love that I realized this. It makes me grateful beyond belief. And it makes me understand things in a new way. As Luci Swindoll said (paraphrased by me) at the recent Women of Faith conference I went to, "Don't wish for Fall when it Summer, or Winter when it's Fall, or Spring when it's Winter, or Summer when it's Spring...enjoy the moment you're in." I'm learning to enjoy the moment I'm in and not wish for something different.

Phone call...

So I really don't like early/late phone calls...especially those that come at 4:00 am. I had one happen last night/this morning. It was crazy. I still don't really know what it was all about.

I've been reflecting and processing the information in that phone call all day, and yet I'm not one bit closer to understanding what it means. I know that it came because of fear of gettng close, but...did it really need to happen at 4 and then continue for 2 hrs???? I don't know...I'm just not sure of anything.

When asking for clarification, I didn't get a full one. I'm not sure what was going on!! So, I will continue to reflect and try to figure out what it is that I should do.

To move on, or not to move on? With him, or without him? Huh? Some pondering is going to be happening tonight. Boy I hope I don't get another 4am call. I need to get some sleep tonight!

Reflections

So I had a fine weekend. Then I was sitting yesterday and I was getting sad. Yes sad. I don't know what it really was. Was I sad, afraid, angry, what? I am just not sure.

Then I saw this and I was reminded that the small things in life are so great!

Thanks Summer for reminding me of that!

And just now, I was called to sub for a school...I had to turn them down, because I am already booked! Kind of nice! But a little sad. I would love to sub at that school. My former school!

Happy Monday!